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Hello Internet,

I have been thinking about how much my hair has changed this year alone and i decided to show you some photos and maybe talk you through so you guys can be up to date on me and my life :)

I started off by shaving an undercut on my left hand

side and my hair 

colour was auburn

This is after i decided to dye my hair using magenta fudge

Here's a more relaxed look with the bright hair

This is more of a progress photo with the darker hair

This is the night i dyed my hair dark brown

x Samecca

My weight Loss Journey So Far

Most of my adult life i have had serious issues with the way i look and the way i see myself, it may seem vain but i came to hate the way i looked because i didn't meet my standards of "beauty"... However after spending time in my own pity party and wishing i wasn't such a big girl anymore as it was really taking its toll on my mental and physical health i decided to join a gym on 28.04.15....
So far i have lost 15kg and i am hoping to lose more wish me luck :)

10 Problems Curvy Women Will Know All About

1.  Finding a bikini that fits often means buying tops and bottoms that come from different bathing suits which can be so irritating

 

 2. About 90 percent of your clothes are 80 percent lycra 

3. You spend a lot of time googling how to dress your body.

 4. Finding a skirt to wear usually falls down to a pencil skirt.... or wearing a full skirt and looking like a stocky cupcake or that you just felt like dressing up from 18th century period france

5. When i run, i jiggle so much that i almost need a seatbelt for my body.

6. I refuse to buy anything without first trying it on as on the occasions i have not tried stuff on i ended up looking like i was wearing a curtain that didn't close where it should causing some unpleasant images that can not be unseen for passing people by

7. I believe that all stores think all curvy women are the same height which leaves my jeans never fitting and dragging on the floor ..

8.  I own numerous waist cinching belts as they seem to make all shirts look good on a curvy bod...

 

9.  It is the hardest thing to find a pair of well fitting jeans that A. don't make you look like you filled them with mashed potato or B. hang off you so much they resemble blue barrels around your legs

10. I will never have nor want a thigh gap ...

 

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Lookbook shoot 17/09/2014

Bond with me

Today i came to the conclusion that i want to develop a bond with you all and tell you something so deep that effects me everyday, well i guess like a plaster its best to just rip it off. . . I have had very bad self esteem to the point where 70-80% of the time i hated myself and the way i look mostly down to my weight, i take a lot of "selfies" to hide the fact that it takes all my restraint not to try and cut off the fat i used to be size 8-10 and 65kgs a healthy weight and i gained 40kg and size 18-20 in just over a year.

Before Weight gain this is at 63.5 kgs

I want address this right now, I am not doing this for pity, i am doing it to educate young women on the fact that there is no need to hate yourself anymore, the girls i see on the front of shop windows, some girls look like that but the truth is that most don't. And to be brutally honest all i want to say to these shops is "f#@k OFF!" and for them to stop cultivating so many young girls to hate them selves by saying that what they advertise is beautiful, sexy or hot whilst inadvertently making girls think well i don't look like that so that must mean i am not beautiful by cross examination.

This is now at 110kgs

I do understand that its not just the retailers fault its society in general and the current standards of beauty. However using images of Photoshopped women is basically meaning all this self loathing is based on the lie within the images that these women are really like the photo when in fact they could be 10kgs heavier and have stretch marks but they remove that to make society happy. 

Sorry for the long rant but i feel so much anger and sadness in regards to this topic as it effects me and the people i love personally and it needs to change.