My weight Loss Journey So Far

Most of my adult life i have had serious issues with the way i look and the way i see myself, it may seem vain but i came to hate the way i looked because i didn't meet my standards of "beauty"... However after spending time in my own pity party and wishing i wasn't such a big girl anymore as it was really taking its toll on my mental and physical health i decided to join a gym on 28.04.15....
So far i have lost 15kg and i am hoping to lose more wish me luck :)

What i have learned in 6 months of marriage so far

Hey there my lovelies,
I decided to write a blog post today on 6 things i have learned from 6 months they may seem quite derogatory towards my husband but hey i think you all have a right to know what to expect after 6 months of marriage...

1. Never ask a man to do anything like laundry etc... they bring it back up like they got a big shiny medal for first place at the laundry Olympics.

2. Not having everything in common is a really good thing... you can go off and do your hobbies and he can go do his, this way you don't end up in a D&D game wondering how many dice you can fit up your nose..

3. It is completely acceptable to break out into a one person musical when the occasion arises aka hanging out laundry, walking down the hall even shopping for clothes... however people don't randomly join in like a really bad version of glee unless you count the chick two racks down who sings like someone put a cassette tape on fast forward ... 

4. Men complain more than women... just putting it out there but i believe my opinion is completely justified when a man can find a way to complain about missing their half swirl on top of their sundae.

5. Men have no concept of time.. when they say i will be there in 15 minutes, what they really mean is i haven't even finished my conversation yet so i am still almost 35 minutes away

6. No matter how hard you try you will always forget your last name and people will look at you like they think you have the brain capacity of a brick sat on a sponge.


Hope you enjoyed our adventure into my life
peace out x

Bond with me

Today i came to the conclusion that i want to develop a bond with you all and tell you something so deep that effects me everyday, well i guess like a plaster its best to just rip it off. . . I have had very bad self esteem to the point where 70-80% of the time i hated myself and the way i look mostly down to my weight, i take a lot of "selfies" to hide the fact that it takes all my restraint not to try and cut off the fat i used to be size 8-10 and 65kgs a healthy weight and i gained 40kg and size 18-20 in just over a year.

Before Weight gain this is at 63.5 kgs

I want address this right now, I am not doing this for pity, i am doing it to educate young women on the fact that there is no need to hate yourself anymore, the girls i see on the front of shop windows, some girls look like that but the truth is that most don't. And to be brutally honest all i want to say to these shops is "f#@k OFF!" and for them to stop cultivating so many young girls to hate them selves by saying that what they advertise is beautiful, sexy or hot whilst inadvertently making girls think well i don't look like that so that must mean i am not beautiful by cross examination.

This is now at 110kgs

I do understand that its not just the retailers fault its society in general and the current standards of beauty. However using images of Photoshopped women is basically meaning all this self loathing is based on the lie within the images that these women are really like the photo when in fact they could be 10kgs heavier and have stretch marks but they remove that to make society happy. 

Sorry for the long rant but i feel so much anger and sadness in regards to this topic as it effects me and the people i love personally and it needs to change.